we've got a due date! :)

Vermon and I have been saying "sometime in November" for a few weeks now, but when exactly has remained up in the air. Back in August when we made the decision to become parents again, November felt a long time away and I thought we would say "November 1st!" But the closer we get, the more room there is for nervousness and questions like, "are we SURE we're ready?" Vermon and I joke that God has pregnancy last 9 months, because if it was any shorter people would never have the confidence to try to get pregnant in the first place. Somehow having a baby come almost a year away gives this illusion that even though you aren't ready now...you can get there, but if we were all honest, weeks leading up to new baby there is probably an uneasy questioning about how this new little person will change our lives.

  But it is up to us when we want to "be ready"...we could put it off another week, another month, or change our minds entirely...so how exactly do you pick your own due date? If I let things on our calendar determine when it would be the perfect time, then this baby would never come... Instead we're going to have to clear out our life for the end of the year while we adjust to life with a newborn and a 4th child.

So, we got out our calendars and looked at the next 3 jam packed/full months and decided to circle, Monday, November 28th...so I guess that is sort of our due date! Our names will go on the CPS registry and that day (or within a few days) we will get a phone call...

I've been busy re-organizing the house, finding space for new baby clothes, and trying to read what I can about helping newborns heal who have been exposed to drugs. I've begun to clear out our calendar for December and started thinking about how to get our family to survive on Spaghetti for 6-8 weeks. So, I guess "nesting" isn't just something that happens in pregnancy...it must be a God-given instinct to expectant adoptive mamas too. :)